Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Out of the mouth of babes

during sunday school this weekend Landry's class learned about Moses. after church we stopped off at Chicken Express for our traditional sunday lunch out as a family. while Jared was ordering, Landry and i decided it was a good time to take a potty break. while we were in there Landry starts yelling at the top of her lungs "let my people go" i can only imagine what the ppl in the resturant were thinking. i'm sure they were thinking i was "freeing the chocolate hostages" lol jared said she could clearly be heard outside, lol. but i'm thinking "ok she's really getting something from class. this is good."
so we finished up and found jared at our table. i thought we would show off for daddy and let him in on her learning. so, i asked her "landry, what did moses say?" She knitted her eyesbrow together. Stuck her right pointer finger out and said "be nice to everybody!" now i'm no biblical scholar but i don't think moses was ever quoted saying that. but being nice to everyone is not a bad thing, so i'm not going to tell her otherwise.
so sometime has passed and we're busy sipping our sweet tea. i've given up on getting her to show off for jared when she yells out again "let my people go." when jared asks her "who said that?" she's get's this nonchalant look on her face, tilts her head to the side and says will complete sincerity "i did" as in "duh dad."

Sunday, August 22, 2010

What I Learned at Women of Faith

the women of faith tour rolled through dallas this weekend and i was there. it was an awesome experience with lost of great women, speakers, music and fun. (on a side note, spending large amounts of time with a truck load of other women is way out of my confort zone)

one of the first speakers was Lisa Harper. she talked about spanx alot, so i liked her. but one thing that she really said that stuck with me was that you don't have to be "the perfect women" to worship, follow or be loved by God. what i think is flawed is beautiful to God. i've always known this but, it never stopped me from trying. Satan uses this get under my skin. so there's something you should know. i am flawed. i have split ends, stretch marks and varicose veins. i have stained carpet, weeds in my flower bed and dusty shelves. i sin, i gossip and fall short. that's definetly hard for me to admit. but, it's ok. God still loves me and can use me.

so what? if i learn this about myself and don't change, then so what? i have to change. i have to allow myself to feel vulnderable to ppl and know that it's ok.
so what's the most volnerable thing i can think of....admiting that jared are going to have more babies. :) for most women i think this is easy as putting on flip flops. but for me it's like trying to paint the nails of my right hand with my left hand....it's hard. after losing our first pregnancy, admitting that we are trying again opens me up to that loss again. there is so much hurt surrounding that first loss that for ppl to know i could experience again is so scary to me. but i know that God is good. and so, it's out there.

Work in Progress

honestly i created this blog b/c the status update box on facebook is just not big enough sometimes. also, there's no freedom of choice with social networking pages. you log on, and bam everyone's opinions, thoughts, etc are loaded right in front of you. God, gives us a choice to follow him. i want people to read my thoughts only when they want to and because they want....if at all. i don't think of myself as a writer by any means, but sometimes the words just need to come out.
my first intention with this blod was not to be 100% religious, but just a place to share my life story, laugh at myself and get my thoughts out. but lately, God has been working in me, and therefore given me alot to think about.
with that being said, if you read and disagree with my thoughts and opinions thats okay. it's not my intention to judge others or push my views on others are list out verses and sermons on here. but instead to open myself up to others. get out of my comfort zone and be vulnerable and share my struggles